Happy Monday to youuuu! For some it’s the most depressing day of the week, for me it’s great as I get to write a Maternity Monday post about my favourite topic- Pregnancy! If you are reading this then Muchas Gracias to you, it is very much appreciated as always! Ok let’s crack on with it!
This is a rather exciting and most likely rambling post as I have been MIA again these past couple of weeks due to being ill and lots going on, it’s all been a bit crazy! But first of all let’s discuss the most exciting events of the past couple of weeks….
Ok, so I’m currently in the 23rd going into the 24th week of pregnancy this week, and my gosh why did nobody tell me how much harder second pregnancies were? Or is that just me? I FEEL soooo much more pregnant this time around! Maybe its not having the luxury you do in first pregnancies, where you can take a pleasant little nap when you want to? This time i’m running around after my one year old and it is taking its toll- I feel so worn out in my body, the majority of the time, even doing simple tasks has me panting for breath! Further to this whole second pregnancy is different malarky, to my absolute shock, my boobs have started producing colostrum which I didn’t think happened until much later, or at least it didn’t with Alfie! No one tells you this though, I think second time around people think you are a pro at this pregnancy business, so I was in absolutely panic in case this meant the time was nearing that baby was going to make an early appearance! Along with the odd braxton hicks, you can see why my mind goes into overdrive! Thankfully, I have some great people to ask for advice, one person being my Mam who has worked in maternity since forever it feels, and one friend being a midwife who gets bombarded with my paranoia fuelled questions and they always puts my mind at ease quickly thank god! So there was that shock discovery of a wet boob and then our lovely friend SPD or Pelvic Girdle pain as it’s otherwise known has reared its lovely self again and I can just feel those familiar niggles and aches when I walk and it freaks me out because I didn’t really suffer to much until right at the end with Alfie, when it was too late for physio, so this time with it happening so early, I’m wondering in slight worry how much worse will it get in the next 16 weeks?! That is my little whinge over, I’m keeping it brief- might just do a whole blog post on my rants actually! Always good to have a bit complain from time to time! Let it alllllll out!
Here is the exciting bit…
On 24th January, we had our anomaly scan at 20 weeks and are very very happy and excited to announce that we are having another baby BOY who looks healthy, no issues and growing just the way he should be! We are absolutely DELIGHTED to be having another little Alfie running around the house! June cannot come quick enough! All of those boys baby clothes will be coming in handy for this little guy and we are literally buzzing now for his arrival! I think it helps so much to put a name to the baby and identify him as a specific gender, I know a lot of people don’t choose to find out what they are having, but I feel it helps me prepare and I would be too curious if I didn’t so we are definitely happy we found out! We have a name picked as well but that is a secret until he arrives! It’s all coming together slowly but surely and he has a few little bits bought for him already, so all good with that one!
Fetal movement is increasing very quickly and he is a very active baby, he has moments of absolute craziness where I sometimes mentally question his gestational age because he feels so strong for only being at 23 weeks! From what I remember, Alfie wasn’t as active as this at this stage, it took until I was around 28/30 weeks to really feel huge movements, but this little bambino is really giving me a good kicking! I have an anterior placenta as well, which I also did with Alfie and I was told again that movements may be cushioned and not as intense but he is keeping up at this point! I often sit and wonder if he will be a huge baby? Alfie was a small baby and even he was fairly strong, but this little guy knocks the wind out of me and he just feels bigger! My poor lady bits have some shock heading their way if that’s the case! Get the stitches ready!
So, where have I been?
I was hit with a disgusting, brutal and what I can only describe as traumatic stomach virus a couple of weeks ago, which literally had me begging and praying for some relief! Simultaneously shitting yourself while you’re knee deep in projectile vomit is the most vile experience to be fair! Worst I have had in forever, and just when my morning sickness had been easing a bit, this whacks me- typical! I felt a bit hard done by if i’m honest! As if pregnant people don’t feel shit enough! To my pleasant, or not surprise- I was then left with a cold/chesty cough! What in heaven’s name is this bug?? It is brutality as its best! When you have children, the last thing you think about is the time when you will get ill and how you will cope, you always think about the little ones first. So if you’re someone like me who rarely gets ill, when it’s your turn- it hits you harder than I can explain. Luckily, Alfie didn’t get this bug thank the Lord above, as I was absolutely dreading it in case he did- I wouldn’t wish it on anyone but we escaped it with him! I wish I could have employed my own personal Cinderella at that point because poor Alfie needed me and I couldn’t even move off the sofa, I managed the basics when Mark was at work, but he didn’t have much fun the poor thing!
Anyway, enough of the vomit talk… We have quite a busy week next week, as Alfie is going to be starting nursery for a couple of hours a week- not a lot, only about 5 I think, but enough to get him socialising with other kids more and doing activities we don’t do at home. We need to work on some of his anxieties about being without me, as he is so clingy at the moment. I can’t even leave a room without him attaching himself to my leg and hysterics begin, it goes a bit beyond normal clingy behaviours- it’s more of a fear where you can see him visibly shake and he looks terrified to be left for a second. I feel really sorry for him because I am partly responsible for this… Due to my high levels of anxiety and the upheaval we had when I was in hospital last year, a lot of things contributed to the fact I wanted him kept with me and didn’t want him too far, which I suppose sounds normal, but I also rarely left the house so Alfie didn’t do much or see too many people- it was always just me and him when Mark was working so he is settled and content with having me around 24/7 and it’s doing him no favours, so we are taking the plunge and trying nursery for the second time and hoping it goes better than last time! I know I just need to have a little faith and positivity and teach myself it’s ok to trust people with Alfie. Hopefully, I get some cute pictures for the fridge as a kind of reward for being a brave mama and letting him go! I am also making some progress and pushing myself to get out more, and have met my mummy friends for coffee which was so lovely and not as scary as I thought it would be! Baby steps lead to big changes! I’m really riding the positivity train at the moment- the more you put out, the more you receive I believe! Talking of baby steps, I also took Alfie to get his first pair of shoes fitted! Very exciting for both him and me, and a bit strange seeing how quick he is growing! His walking is turning into running and he just never stops, if Alfie had a pedometer attached to him, it wouldn’t surprise me how many miles he clocks up in a day! His speech is coming on lovely and he never stops chatting with all of these new words taking me by surprise! He was an early talker anyway but it still makes me laugh hearing him say certain things as he gets older! Babies and toddlers are truly amazing!
If you are still with me at this point then thank you! If you haven’t already, please follow the blog, check your emails as you have to click a link to confirm you want to follow! I also appreciate everyone’s understanding of my lack of posts recently! If I was to sit and write what has been happening in full, you wouldn’t be reading this until next year!
Mental Health post coming up during the week (fingers crossed)- stay tuned!